Tuesday, December 28, 2010
All of a sudden, I just feel like a crap. Dont ask me why cause I've never thought about the cause.
Things just seem to get harder and harder everytime, it's as though the world is condemning my actions.
Sidetrack. I'm a possessive fellow, this I dont deny. It gets even worse when the subject is not even in my possession. I still take it as though it's mine. Being such an ass, it's natural to be disappointed so easily that it really makes me think twice about doing the things that I am doing. I'm a pessimistic person too and that doesn't help very much.
All j want to say is that I'm in a circle of pain and confusion. It's been 2 mths since I gave myself that testing period. Believe it or not, the feeling's still there. It's on a whole new level.
Here's the confusing part, should I give up, cause there's so many factors goin against me and one major obstacle is the past coming back to rejoin her life. I really don't know what to do. Everyday I wake up and ask myself if I should give up or not. It's tiring me out.
If that path is the way u wan to go, I wish you all the best. But just to let you know, I'll be sticking around of you need me.