Saturday, June 5, 2010
Is it very unreasonable of me to ask to borrow the car when he isnt using it? Like when I want to church? I mean its ok if he doesnt want to go, and i'm not forcing him to fetch me. But i have a license. Can't he just lend me the car? I just don't understand why he doesn't lend me the car. He's not even using it. I go out and come back and see the car in the same exact spot. He didnt go out. So why cant i borrow the car?
Let's talk about insurance. He tells me his insurance doesn't cover. I did my homework and went on the net to know more about it. Sad to say, whatever he says is bullshit. None of it is true. Insurance do cover driver regardless they are named or un-named. So back to the question, why doesn't he lend me the car? I'm not asking him to buy me a car or let me drive to school or what. All i'm asking is to just lend me the car once in a while when he's not using it.
Yes i know he bought the car, and its his car. But they promised me to pay for my license. And after 2 months, I got my license. All by myself. You can imagine the amount of money used to pay for the license. 1.7k - 2k. That's hell load of money for a teenager like me. If i could have used it in another way, I bet it was far more logical. The fact that i went for driving lessons is because i thought my parents were paying. So now, i have my license, shouldn't they make up to me or something? Like letting me drive once in a while? Lend me the car?
I really don't understand. I look at other cars on the road which has the p-plate, i look into the window and see whose the driver. As i expected, a young adult. and i look at the passenger seat beside, guess what, its the father. Then i look back into the car i'm in. I see the triangle. And i ask myself. Why am i in the backseat? I also got my license, why cant i drive? The feeling of dissatisfaction just engulfs me. I just feel unfair. I work my ass, get the money which is meant for me to do shopping and i use it for the "sponsorship" of the license. I sponsor my own license? Shouldnt it be them sponsoring me? I didnt noe the word sponsor meant that I had to pay myself.
Talk about experience. One very fortunate Sunday, i got a break at it, outside church, coffee shop, just need to drive in. Not much but better then none. I turn out of the carpark and got ready to join the main road. The bus was actually moving quite slow but i wasn't sure if it would accelerate or not. So he asked me to drive off, i jsut listen. Then my mother said, i didnt have the experience, how to lend me the car. In my heart, i was just simply laughing. I didn't have the opportunity to drive alone, so how in the world would i get that experience? Wikipedia states the definition of experience: Experience as a general concept comprises knowledge of or skill in or observation of some thing or some event gained through involvement in or exposure to that thing or event. Gained through involvement. Did i have any involvement of this thing/event. NO.
U know, i envy those who are so rich because their dad actually buys a car for them. A car. I wouldn't say we were poor, but at least we could afford a car. I'm sorry its HIS car.
He drives at least 5 hours a day during the week. So if he would just let me take over on weekends, imagine the amount of rest he could get. But hell no. He's so freakingly stubborn then he clings on to the wheel. U noe that kind of feeling when something better could have been done but the person just doesn't give in? Its just so frustrating.
At the end of the day, I just simply don't know why he doesn't let me drive. And I'm sad. I'm frustrated.