Saturday, April 3, 2010
Some people have all the money in the world, some people have the luck. Some people have parents showering them with gifts so exorbitant that it just seems unreal. Some people do what they want, where they want and when they want. Some people just have parents that are able to satisfy their children's wants.
I have parents who can satisfy my wants but they don't and they come up with lousy excuses. Mother says I keep complaining about not driving then God will take it away. But I'm not even using it, how am I going to lose it? I just don't get it. This trial that God have given me to gain patience is getting harder and harder. Each time we go out, I wonder if I'm lucky enough to drive for dinner. It's just a simple request. But each time, i find myself in the backseat. I can't be bothered to ask because I know what is his reply. Some people get a car after they pass, I'm not comparing with them cause I know very well the situation at home. Yes we have a car. But I'm not driving at all. I see triangle plates everywhere and i really envy those that drive. Their parents even allow them to have the car over the weekend, or even drive to school. I'm not asking to drive everyday to school, I'm just asking to drive during Sundays where there are activities after church. Is that really so difficult?
All they tell me is about the insurance thing. Expensive. So if i wait one year means it'll get cheaper? Does it work that way? I don't know and they can't be bothered to explain to me also. I've a car, a license, but I'm not driving. I take the bus, the train. I don't even take the taxis. So tell me, what really is the purpose of me getting my license? To frame it up and look nice? To me, it really looks like it. I haven't touched the wheel in 2 weeks. I'm itching to drive. He knows it but he still doesn't let me drive. Not even with him by my side. I really want to drive without my parents. And the only time i ever did was when they went to Vietnam. I'm so thankful i did cause I'll never experience the joy of driving with them by my side.