Work has taken over my life. Everyday is just work work and work. I really don't know how long i can hold out. Some might say its the best time to work now because of the festive seasons along with the new year, yet some might say that its the holidays and why in the world are you working? You're missing out all the fun.

My belief now lies in the latter. Everybody's having holidays. Everybody's having fun. I am but the only one working my ass of carrying the luggage of loser indians, who, bring so heavy bags, and, stay for one night. Where's my share of fun? I've totally lost the feeling of being free... Lazing around the whole day, just thinking how to spend my day, joining friends for lunch/dinner. I really forgot how it feels. Then i start seeing the pictures of how everybody is having fun, going out together, it just makes me feel sad. Like I was part of them but i'm drifting out so fast before u could finish the word Mississippi... Sometimes i really wonder, do they still remember me? Do you even know who I am?

My daily routine: Work, Home. No other place. Family, work-mates. That's it. No friends. I'm really starting to think twice about the path I've chosen. Its really not easy, in fact, i would say its extremely difficult. How i long to be in the presence of friends, enjoying the company. I can't. I'm working.

"Hey, movie tomorrow at 6!"

"I'm sorry, working tml"

That's how my replies always are. Either that or I have to sleep early cause I ain't a late sleeper. Its just gnawing at me, making me pessimistic.

But somehow, something just keeps me going. I don't know what, but i just keep working and working. I know its God at work. Let it go, He will make it all come back again. He will put me where he desire and bless me thousand folds from where I am now.

Funny Monkey now 4:17 PM;