Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Things are going alright for me right now. Nothing is really bothering me. Except for some random thoughts of someone... Its really random about her. I just dunnoe why but i just randomly think about her. I dun think its a bad thing and neither do i think its a good thing. Its just too random for me. I just dunnoe what to do with that thought.
I'm currently at Yamzy's house tonning. I'm waiting for the wrestling to end and then spam the Xbox... During the holidays i say want to come but then didnt come. Now at the end of the holiday then come. haha. but better then nothing luh, can get to spam 2k9.
Is love something that is found or something that is earned? I just dont know. Some ppl dun have to do much to see the effects of love but some try so hard but just dont get to see love. What about me? Do i spend alot of time on this particular section of my life? I do not know. But i really do want to overwhelmed by it. Some ppl just would trade the world for that little part of life but i just dun not get that privilege... I would love to have someone to really take care of me you know? Just like a little boy that needs love. it doesnt really mean that being the guy, i have to do all the loving stuff... it could be the other way round too... SOme one that makes the effort to do little things would just sweep me off my feet. U might think its nothing but i really think its these little efforts that make a relationship successful.
I have no idea what to type already.. I'll just end of with a prayer...
Dear God, you know how i feel.. I know its a small small problem and u've already solved it long before it came, I jsut wanna ask that u take away the pain i feel. I also wanna pray that you be by my side the next monday as a set foot in new environment and start working as an adult. I pray for a learning heart as i try to absorb as many things as i can when i work and i pray for your blessings to do well in it... I pray that you draw me closer to you then before even though i might not go to church for the next 6 months or so. So Father Lord i pray that u hold me close to you and be with me throughout.
Amen.