Monday, August 31, 2009
I went way too far. But i didnt mean it. It was done in a moment of anger. Irrational thinking. How could i ever do that? I really didnt mean it. But i just dont know what you were thinking. I have no idea what you were feeling. u didnt tell me anything, didnt show me anything, u just left me there. I'm noe i'm in the wrong but if i had not reacted like that. It meant that i wasnt true to u... It showed how much u meant to me. Way too much to have made me reacted like that. I'm sorry. I shouldnt have said all that.
Today i spent the entire day thinking about it and it really hurt me alot. I knew i was in the wrong and i would do anything to make it up to you. I'm really sorry. really am. Losing you would be so hard for me... But i really don't know how u are feeling right now? Just liek the chalet, u didnt tell me anything, and u showed me nothing. What i inferred was that u liked him. That's why i was never around when the both of you were together. I ddint want to stay and see the pain slowly crawling in. And i hid at the corner while watching one of the guys preparing candles to surprise. That was the last straw i could take. I really didnt know what to do. even if i wasnt around, you didnt bother too and that added to the pain.
I'm sorry. I really am..