Monday, May 18, 2009
On sat, went to church for worship and bible study. We did a topic of "why should we love?"
On side track, we also did some exercise that requires us to think about what motivates us to do some things. Things like "what motivates us to get good grades", "what motivates us to exercise", all these kind of mundane stuff which actually needs motivation for us to do. It seems pretty easy to find the motivation that was needed to do all these but one question totally stumped me. "What motivates you to love?" I couldn't think of anything. What actually motivates you to love? Is it the fact that u will be loved when u love? or is it the relationship u have with that person that motivates u to love? I just couldn't find my own answer. "Love your neighbour as thy self" this is achievable for me. But how bout loving someone from ur own family? Someone that creates trouble every single day, someone who has no respect for none whosoever and just spoils ur day every time u wake up with a notion of a "brand new day"?
I just find it hard to love someone like that and someone especially from ur own family. Never thought of that right? Everyone believes that loving someone in the family is never a problem. But deep down, unconsciously, its hard to love. Its hard to love someone of ur own rather someone that isnt related to u. Why is that? Why is it so hard to love someone of ur own? I believe its the things that they do every single day to spoil ur beautiful morning, the words of disrespect that really makes it harder to love them. take for an example, my brothers. They are the worse ppl i have seen in my life but i love them to a certain extent. They are the ones that make my life miserable at some point of time during the day and they are the ones that make me feel as though i'm living with enemies. However, when all these things go away, when they stop doing all that, its easier to love them. But then, here comes the ironic part, when i start to love them, everything changes... so how am i supposed to love them? Its so damn hard.
Either way, i'm still gonna try and love them because God first loved us, and he gave his greatest love by sending his son down to earth to die for our sins.
I just find it hard to love someone like that and someone especially from ur own family. Never thought of that right? Everyone believes that loving someone in the family is never a problem. But deep down, unconsciously, its hard to love. Its hard to love someone of ur own rather someone that isnt related to u. Why is that? Why is it so hard to love someone of ur own? I believe its the things that they do every single day to spoil ur beautiful morning, the words of disrespect that really makes it harder to love them. take for an example, my brothers. They are the worse ppl i have seen in my life but i love them to a certain extent. They are the ones that make my life miserable at some point of time during the day and they are the ones that make me feel as though i'm living with enemies. However, when all these things go away, when they stop doing all that, its easier to love them. But then, here comes the ironic part, when i start to love them, everything changes... so how am i supposed to love them? Its so damn hard.
Either way, i'm still gonna try and love them because God first loved us, and he gave his greatest love by sending his son down to earth to die for our sins.