Sunday, November 2, 2008
I'm totally not in the mood to blog now but i need to de-stress... =_=" Its not the stress that comes from academics, or rather its not really stress, its just some problems that i gotta face up to. School's totally a drag for me now... I sometimes really regretted not taking the o's again... If i took the o's, left ITE, then i wouldnt encounter such problems... the only reason i stayed was... cant put them here...
U know how it feels to see friends leaving u one by one? I mean they used to be ok with u and stuff... then they start to isolate u, leaving u to ur ownself... I mean its alright to like isolate budden u start thinking bout the past, and the words that they say and u start to think if all those were true or just plain bullshit... For me, i think its plain bullshit. =_= i'm not sad that they leave me or wat but its just that the way they 'suddenly become good friends" and start to do things together that makes me wonder if that friendship that they are having will, in the end, become a "surface friendship" after something big happens, either good or bad. Or whether there's some motive for them to "be good friends". And then when ur alone, ppl start asking 'where's ur good friend?" i've got no qualms in being alone, being a loner also doesnt matter to me, but the fact that ppl ask me where's my good friends indicate 2 things : 1, that person claimed that the both of u are good friends. 2. U urself claim that the both of u are good friends. And if i wasnt wrong, i didnt claim anything bout the two of us. I just nodded along without saying anything. If there's something that u're not happy bout, say it, dun do it underhandedly, talking behind ppl's back. =_= wateva the case, i'm just gonna take on wateva God's throwing at me and i'm gonna allow him to do wat he wants through me.
And to quote michelle, "being successful is being wat God wants you to be" Her sharing yesterday totally spoke to me... Things bout school and life, somewhat similar. :D
After the walk, headed to AMK to eat with Ahmad, Ezann etc, wasnt really considered together cause we were scattered around the area, some macs, some kopitiam. haha. I ate at the kopitiam with Ahmad. Nice guy. :D I looked at him smoke and i start to wonder how i would be if i smoked too, but i figured out that i would look weird. haha. Actually, i really wonder how it taste like. Issit really that nice? haha. Then after smoking went back to sit, the whole grp of malays sit down tgt, starting to crap with each other and have alot of fun. And then it dawned upon me, how come we chinese dun haf such good friendships, the malays go everywhere together, doing things together. Its just really nice to see them having fun tgt. It might just be a surface thing or wat but the way i see it, they're really cliquing well together. I had a fair bit of laughter with them, and then headed to the Mrt with Ezann and Maan to head to our own destination. And here i am, blogging. haha. Well, I'm so tired cause i woke up at 5 cause i recieved a msg quite late informing me to meet but nvm, i'm gonna make it up with my beauty sleep now.. take care folk! :D School's starting tml.. argh..