Monday, November 3, 2008
Clarifying things... i stayed because of something. not someone. I didnt put that down cause i felt it was really a wonderful kind of thing and it was indescribable. But let me try and share it with u. Tuesday, February 19th, 2008. Got my results for my posting and was posted to ITE. Never in my mind had i thought of going into ITE. NEVER. Therefore, i was just plain speechless...
I never thought how i would progress from ITE. I onli thought bout how i progressed from Poly. Even before the O's start, all i had in my mind was poly, poly and more poly. Even my mother knew that. But after i was posted to ITE, i was offered another choice, to re-take O's and drop ITE. I thought i could do both and thus, went to ITE and at the same time, study for the O's. How wrong was i when i realised that the schedule in ITE was so tight that it did not permit me to have enough energy to study for the O's. I reached a point of desperation and called upon the Lord. A few days went pass and i had a dream. A dream that seemed so realistic to me. I was in a suit. Standing at a corner of a counter, talking to some ppl. The whole place seemed grand and posh. And then, i lead someone to a room, from there, i knew where i was, i was working in a hotel. God had spoken to me. God wanted me to take the path through ITE. He wanted to shape my character, build my inner-self. He knew i was going to have problems but i did not. Looking back, i've realised wat God wanted to teach me, he wanted me to rely on him, to be dependent on him. And i have failed to do that because i was arguing to be in the driver's seat of my life. God has showed his vision for me and i decided to stay in ITE. Because where i am now i know, is where he wants me to be.
In the world's eyes, having no matierialistic stuff might be deemed as failure. But it God's eyes, just having him in your heart is already the biggest success that i have. Lastly, I'm sorry for wat i did. Friends or no friends, i'm gonna complete this course with a big loud bang.
Labels: facts come from the real person. Not from other ppl's mouth.