Tuesday, September 2, 2008
sometimes, things are better left unsaid lest someone gets hurt, one being hurt is better then 2 being hurt. Just continue living, each day by each day, without knowing wat tomorrow brings. straying by the edge, one small wrong step may send me down the deep deep valley... I will not shout, neither will anyone be ard me... I'll just fall myself.
Sometimes, sitting at the side and being left out brings me to see the whole class from another perspective... Scanning my way round, people are just tgt in cliques.. It might just be from the outside but that's better then nothing. At least there's something that's pulling u towards the sense of belonging, there's someone to hang ard with and stuff... Then i have a sense of transperency that comes over me making me feel as though i'm not around as i go round trying to find myself in the midst of everyone but to no avail... It is through my home and the little corner that i have where i find myself.. I'm not saying that i'm not comfortable with the friends around me, its just that i've yet to find my true self in the midst of reality...
I just find it very hard to reveal wat's inside of me... everything is kept deep deep deep down inside of me and asking me to share will be a dumb dumb idea cause i'll never do so. The onli time will be when i decide myself if i wan to tell... I'm mysterious... and i sorta half-like, half-hate... but that's the way i am.. affairs of the ____ are also something that i'm totally confused bout. I have practically no fucking idea wat i am doing right now. darn... once again, screwing up again...