Monday, August 4, 2008
Todae was a really bad day in SQC class... it totally sucked. I think I'm on the verge of releasing the inner demon in me... I so wanted to walk out of the class after i did the role-play and listening to her nonsense. I basically did everything right i guess.. Apologizing, offering solutions and everything else.. she didnt give me a chance to finish talking lor... Asshole.
And then when we talked bout the city tour thing, she suddenly said this one cannot that one cannot.. like what the **** la. now then u tell us. Very early hor... -_-" And she called me to be role-play when i was sleeping, naturally the brain cannot process fast enough right... i even asked to wash my face so that it'll enable me to do better but NOOOOOOO... some asshole refuse to. And with her comments, i really cannot stand her. The more i listen to her nonsense, i just cannot help but contain my unhappiness inside... i so wanna rebel against her. I so wanna make her life difficult for her... Always say sorry... sorry got use meh.. :P
Todae no phase test. Wen says we are not ready yet so tml then do the test... i think faster finish faster done. like that best. but dunwan to be the first la. first is always not good one... But the first person sets the expectation for the entire grp of ppl going for the test so the first one better not be a good one. :P I really wan to do well for the test but if she is going to give us negative answers when we do the things we thought was right at this point of time, i reckon that there's no point in trying to do well anymore since you are trying to gun us down.. wateva the case is, i'll just try my best.
Dear Lord, I hope that you'll take away all fear in us and let us do the test with your light shining. Proclaiming to all the world that you are the Lord God Almighty...
Each time i see you talking about the others, i just feel so distanced away from you.. the way you talk bout them makes them look so much more important and u never seem to forget them... My existence seems to have no impact on you, I'm treated as if i'm not around, i feel like i'm just a fly bothering you... yet as i see u smiling everyday, the pain just goes away but i'm reminded of the pain once i step back into reality... I'm so afraid of losing you, i cant bear to see you leave my sight... I'm so afraid someone might take you away leavin me in total darkness....