Monday, July 14, 2008
things aint the same anymore thats for sure.... Dun ask me why but i just feel this way...
Todae the class celebrated the birthdays of the june and july babies. I was the onli one from July... haha. So sad right. the others are all in june... Ahmad and Mimi. AND AND INDA couldnt believe i was younger then her!!! hahaha. Everybody thought i was turning 18. haha. well, sorry to burst ur bubble but i'm 17. haha. I was expecting you to be there to celebrate alongside with the class but u weren't there.
Well, there was the cake, birthday song bla bla bla... it was nice though. THANK YOU HA!!! Wonderful bunch of ppl... there's test tmr and i dun think i'm ready for it. i could also say i'm not ready for everything. though i look everything like a student ready for school but NO! i"m not. I'm putting a mask every single day... It hurts deep down inside
I've looking at my life for the past few weeks and realised something... U noe how ppl sae that parents dun not noe that the child is yearning for their love so they try to make up by giving materialistic stuff? well, my life is exactly opposite... i've got all the love in the world but no materialistic things... -_-" u might say that i'm wrong with all the phones that i have but i can tell u something, they are the phones my father finish toying with and passes it to me...
And the laptop thing. It was the sunday before my birthday and he brought me to Sim Lim square. I thought it was going to be a fruitful trip as he kept on saying that this was good, that was not bad. I really had high hopes of getting a laptop they very day but guess wat... 2 hrs after walking around, i went home empty handed. Its like WTF? u brought me there but i came back empty handed. -_-" And i always see ppl going out of Sim Lim with boxes or plastic bags but IT DOESNT APPLY TO ME AT ALL!!!! I'm always there and coming out empty handed!!!! ARGH!!! I'm passed caring all those. it makes me pissed with my father. Real pissed. And! LAst week he said i could upgrade my line so i could get a new phone, and he brought home a leaflet from singtel with the offers so i also thought he was going to change my phone for me cos he also say this one good that one good. BUT! I DIDNT CHANGE! WTFFFF!!!!!!
And i'm stuck to this desktop with all my freaking info all over the com and i gotta share it with another 3 ppl. How am i possibly gonna keep all my stuff? and i always want privacy when i'm blogging so that i can really pour out everything BUT NO!!!!! The stupid desktop is in the study area and everybody gets to see the com so i cannot blog with my own piece of mind. I'm always wondering if they could see what i'm blogging bout. Some of u might say that its gonna be seen anyway but do u understand that the blog is somewhat a replacement for a diary and when u write a diary, nobody is supposed to look? so, i'm sorry to say this but not all my post all from the bottom of my heart. i guess u ppl should be able to tell which one are real and which are just plain bullshit. DAMN!