Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Hello peeps, i'm here to blog again. haha. this week has really been a smooth sailing week and thats all thanks to Jesus.. :) so this post is going to be dedicated to the one and only Jesus. :)
Hello God. heh. I think u would noe that i'm blogging and i think that u also know that i'm dedicating this post to you. :) So here goes..
Lord, i know that u are always there right beside me. Every single minute and second ur just right beside me. Though i always say that u are not there beside me, deep down inside i know that u are sad to hear that and i wanna apologise for that. I'm sorry for always blaming you every now and then when things dun not go my way. I'm sorry for not talking to u when i dun have problems but yet i come to u onli when i got problems. Looking back at the entire episode of the O's, i've come to realised that u placed me in ITE for a reason. U placed me in ITE, class HA. In this wonderful class, i experienced the love that u ha ve placed in the class and u tried telling me that u are around by placing Jovin, Samuel and Rebecca just to let me noe that i'm not alone in this situation. There are also ppl that are in same situation as me. I've always wondered why ur children do so well academically but yet it dosent apply to me. But now i noe, its through hardwork and ur love that they do so well but i didnt do any of those. i onli know how to come home and slack all around the house. I didnt study at all. But by putting me in ITE, u've showed me that everything comes we a price but the price comes along with something else. and that something else is U. Lord, u come with the price to be paid and u came and stayed right beside me all this while, through my ups and downs u were right beside me but i didnt acknowlege that, i tried pushing u aside... I'm sorry Lord.
The love that u showered upon me cannot be decribed in words, my everything is from u Oh Lord. Without , i'm nothing. U've showed me many things that i havent been able to see from my own point of view but u changed it in such a way that i experience u.U've placed me in a good enviroment, with good friends, Jena, David, Mimi, etc. Their presence makes me feel loved.Even when i went through that particular period of time, i was too immature to realise that u were actually asking me to wait. i was foolish not to know that. But now Lord, with ur comfort and guidance, i've once again found that bubbly me though i'm still holding on to that little hope. Hope u dun mind.. :P Going through that time, i'm so glad that u allowed me to emo just for one single day and i thank you for that cause if not, i'll be stuck in that pit hole for a long period of time. And Lord, u've given me wonderful parents. Parents that i can joke around with and play with, though i've never share my deepest feelings but Lord, u given me such wonderful parents that i've taken them for granted time and time again. allowing myself to distance the relationship within us but i thank you that u drew us back again each time and the relationship grows stronger. U've also given me materialistic needs through them and i really wan to thank u for that.
I wanna thank you for all the things u haf done, giving me good parents, good friends, good enviroment. Thank you for being by my side even when i tried to push u away. Thank you for pulling me out of tha hole. Thank you for carrying me when i really felt down. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and lastly, Thank you for dying on the cross for me. I lOVE YOU.
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