Wednesday, April 2, 2008
I'm faced with a dilemma once again...Two daes ago, Pastor Eric called me and talked to me bout re-taking my o's...seriously, i've never thought of re-taking my o's because i thought it would be a waste of time and money..
But after wat Uncle Steven said regarding the retaking of o's, i started to think bout it...he said if i did well, i could go to poly from there...so that means next year, i'll go to poly...budden there's the ite which i'm already in, which somewhat standing in my way of making the decision...cause if i'm going to re-take my o levels, i dun think i wanna go to ite also...so i have a very big choice to make...it's either re-take, dun go ite, or... go ite, dun re-take.... So i'm really caught in this dilemma...
To me, retaking o's is lyk studying all over again, starting from scratch which i am not really keen on...but another feeling inside of me that wants to study...this feeling is really strong but there's the feeling of fear in me also that's stopping me from making this decision...the fear of not being able to reach expectations, and accountibilities...Pastor Eric wants to help me by opening a room in church for me to study and Uncle Steven wans to help me in my math and science...I think this is a God given oppurtunity of a second chance for me to really do well in my o's....
i need to sumbit the form by tomolo and i stil haven make the decision...i'm so.....confused? i dunnoe how to describe how i'm feeling.... God is really blessing me now by opening 2 doors for me now. 1--> To retake my o's and start all over again. 2---> Continue to study in ite and than go on to poly from there.However...the decision on which door i'm going to choose doesnt seem so easy...its...killing me...this is one problem i am not going to forget....
Dear God... pls help me make the right decision though i noe whichever path i chose, its still all in your plan...
Amen.