Monday, February 25, 2008
the world that i am in now has just showed me a tunnel.it seems long and treacherous...i feel so tired trying to find the end of the tunnel and for the light.
everything i had, i lost. during the games on saturdae, being in-charge seemed lyk an idea to boost my emotions.yet it did not help. i realised subconsiously, i was moving away from the rest of the jammers. and while part of ywav was playing the captain's ball, few of ywavers were just hanging around on the pathway near the grass pasture and i instantly moved away from them. i do not noe why i did that but i just did.
in my heart, there was a feeling of being extracted out of the group and on the way to being put into another group. i dunnoe wat group is that and i'm not looking forward to it.i missed church on sundae.. i lied to caleb...
in actual fact, i didnt want to go. i wanted to stay at home and laze around...i dint feel like doing anything.wats the point anyway...
so right now, i'm still struggling in the tunnel and i'm not expecting anyone to light up the tunnel for me.until the dae i reach the end of the tunnel, i'll still be living inside my world....
