Friday, February 1, 2008
i've realised i've being emoing every now and then whenever i'm alone and it doesnt help dat i'm working in a school...my emoing starts when i see ppl in uniforms..like ppl from secondary schools/JC/MI, all that type of stuff...
i mean, whenever i look at them, their like having so much fun being with each other..there's a feeling of being left-out...sometimes, i really regreted not studying harder....i miss the "school life".all the timetables, recess all that kind of stuff that is being done during school hours u noe?? i really miss that kind of life...
on mondae or tuesdae(i cant really remember), i played ball with Lejon and his friends, i got to noe 2 of his friends, KT( Kenneth tang), and Sebastian. they are really great guys...hanging around with each other, "bullying" each other..its really really......i cant describe the feeling. its lyk u wanna haf that playfull-ness with ur friends doing all the stupid stuff...i really really miss it and i'm regretting so darn much now....
and it also doesnt help when i get to travel alone...in the mornings and evenings, when the train is packed with commuters hu stubbornly try to squeeze in...i see students, with their friends, trying to get onto the train and dan when they cannot get in, those already on the train will try and pull them in or step out of the train to join the others dan they start laughing..and i'm yearning to haf that kind of feeling again...
guess emoing really showed me that God is always with me...on wednesdae, after i finished work, walking alone the path way, i looked up at the sky.. it was, awesome blue..no grey clouds in sight...it was as if God was trying to say" bert! emoing doesnt help...look at the sky, enjoy wat u haf now. its just temporary...."
but somehow, i just cannot stop emoing...God does a great part in taking it away from me....he puts friends in my midst..ppl lyk jem.--->the ultimate Emo-king. i've never seen him meeting me in a cheerful way..always emo emo....so darn irritating. and this is where i stop emoing.haha.Thanks Jem!!! haha.i stop because i ask him to stop emoing and haf some fun rather dan showing that emo face...haha.
but frankly speaking, if i had a chance to study all over again, i gladly will..but right now, i'll just enjoy the friendship that i haf now..
THANK YOU GOD!!!!